Sudden moments of realization, the Midwest & new music
As I'm wont to do, I spend far too much time thinking. Thinking, in general, isn't a very beneficial exercise. It lends itself to simply wasting time and if there's one thing that I'm great at, it's wasting time. That sort of leads me to my point today...
It's been correctly said that time is the most valuable resource in human existence and I, in spite of being the dunce that I am, agree fully. I've reached what could technically be called "middle age" at 43 years old and I've begun to spend too much time thinking about just about everything instead of doing just about anything. There's a reason for that though: I have no idea what to do. Seriously. I just don't know.
I've been reading quite a bit lately about the benefits of living in the moment, staying present, etc. Meditation, breathing exercises and the like. My inability to focus makes meditation difficult. For example, a couple of weeks back a thought/image entered my head that I wasn't able to shake for days. I'm not going to get into the specifics of that image because quite frankly it's something that I've never actually seen but that just popped in there and stuck. I didn't like it at all. Like...at all.
Anyways, I'm not able to just "do" like everything I've been reading. Some of the things that I want to do require capital which I simply don't have OR given the current climate on Earth with regards to travel, it's just not feasible. Growing up I changed my mind constantly about what I "wanted to be" when I actually did grow up. I have no real "passions" or "hobbies" that grow into hobbies and it worries me. Time seems to be running out for me and I'm just finally becoming aware of it.
This presents another quandary as everyone that I know has that one thing or two things that they may not love, but that they've spent a lot of time working on and hence have a thing. That hasn't happened for me. Ever. It's this moment of sudden realization that's become quite troubling.
The wife and I spent some time in Ohio last week and it was an enjoyable adventure. We started by flying to Detroit because it was direct and less expensive than flying to Cleveland. From there we drove to Cleveland, Canton, Columbus and finally Cincinnati...clear across the state. It wasn't the most interesting drive, but that part of the world loves fast food and chain restaurants. While I'm not exactly blessed with fine dining in my local area, it's at least a tad more imaginative than more Arby's than you can shake a stick at.
I thought Cleveland was just fine, Canton could really just be all football, all the time, Columbus seemed nice and the Cincinnati/Covington, KY area was actually outstanding. I'd go back to that area again in a heartbeat.
It's no wonder that Ohio is a political hotbed because it's such a mix of people. The cities are likely more liberal and everywhere else they're afraid of anything that isn't white. Some of them really love religion too. So much so that they feel the need to drive around with proof....
So yeah, Ohio and by extension/association, is odd.
This is only new to me as it's not at all "new" in the context of release date, but I've been into The Jam this week and I absolutely love this song.
And that'll do me.